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by Mary Beth

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it's never a bad idea to have a book of matches.

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released May 7, 2015

Zach Landreneau recorded, mixed, and mastered this album.
Mary Beth Widhalm performed guitar, cello, and vocals.

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Mary Beth Austin, Texas

I've played cello since age 7, but I got my first guitar at 16. For 12 years, I just learned a few chords and wrote goofy songs for my friends. But a year ago, after returning from a month on tour, playing guitar suddenly became the best part of my day. I can't stop. Something must be done. So, this is something. ... more

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Track Name: Gone Ghost
no matter the place or time
there's no hope 'tween your heart and mine
our stars are crossed in every universe
and there ain't no way to break this curse

memories haunt in this ghost town
everywhere i see your crown
sometimes i feel like i might drown
in the cursed spirits that surround

got no place to call a home
when you're running all alone
flying high and fast, leaving just a trace
in a constant cursed fall from grace
Track Name: fear & trembling
I lock my door against the wind
terrified it will burst in
and rip up all my roots again
just like the time before

for if I meet such wild gales
I know I'll yearn to ride the rails
or fly away and hoist my sails
and set back out to sea

see? I'll follow blindly
leaving landscapes framed behind me
'so long' I'll say benignly,
I'm headed out the door

out to new horizons
different loves and different lies
and it comes and no surprise
I've come back for more

come back for more

more of what I'm lacking
I'm continuously packing
prepped my own hi-jacking
like the cancer never came

but now my heart is weakened
by a burden it can't speak and
my eyes are like two beacons,
they give it all away

see? I'll follow blindly
leaving landscapes framed behind me
'so long' I'll say benignly,
I'm headed out the door

out to new horizons
different loves and different lives
and it comes and no surprise
I've come back for more

come back for more

when that wind begins to howl
I'm trembling like a tree bough
should I stay or should I go now?
do I even have a choice?

when that wind begins to howl
I'm trembling like a tree bough
should I stay or should I go now?
do I even have a choice?
do I even have a choice?

lock my door against the wind
terrified it will burst in
and rip up all my roots again
just like the time before
Track Name: no good at goodbyes
I just keep thinking of her beautiful scars
and the way she would wiggle all night at the bars
and the way she would float past the girls and guitars
seeming to be above them

she pulled me outside in this big demonstration
and stared at the sky with the strangest fixation
and told me sad stories of each constellation
seeming to be among them

some nights she'd show up wearing nothing but smiles
and her tattoos and stickers of bands she admired
and we'd scream in the dark and we'd set things on fire
savoring every moment

she seemed to sing every time she exhaled
with my hands on her neck and her voice sounding frail
but pluck her just right and boy, would she wail
sounding a little indulgent

and each night she leaves me again
and I'm no good at goodbyes
and she says she'll see me again,
but I know that look in her eyes
when she's telling lies

but I just keep thinking of her terrible scars
that come from a rage somewhere deep in the heart
and singing of jet planes while riding in cars,
dreaming always of escaping.

"and I'm leaving on a jet plane,
I don't know if I'll be back again.
oh, babe I hate to go..."

and each night she leaves me again
and I'm no good at goodbyes
and she says she'll see me again,
but I know that look in her eyes
when she's telling lies
Track Name: montauk
I'm so tired, take it all away
take me in your hands, teach me to pray
"there must be a thousand ways
to kneel and kiss the ground."

honeycomb my beehive brain
make me crazy or make me sane
make me anything, just take away
that wild buzzing sound

it comes in waves
and it leaves for days
and I'm left just waiting
ready to obey

rolling in the smoke sublime
do just one thing at a time
leave no question in my mind
help me lose all I have found

it comes in waves
and it leaves for days
and I'm left just waiting
ready to obey
Track Name: the spider & the fly
"I want to watch you dance with her"
I want to see you move with her
I want to hear her whisper
that she's in love with you

don't hang around with me, boy
I'm restless, can't you see?
but my curiosity
has got me watching you

I never claimed to have self-control
"it's a fine thing," I've been told
oh, if only you had none
you'd agree that being bad is much more fun

I want to watch you want me
at first you're scared, but slowly
you come around and tell me
what you want to do

"alive and empty"
"so close to god, it's crazy"
besides control, well baby
what have we got to lose?

like clockwork you come knocking on my screen door
telling me you can't do this anymore
but you're the spider, I'm the fly
and it is certain death if I don't try

I want to watch you dance with her
I want to see you hold her
and then have you come over her
'cause I know what to do
Track Name: guessing games
I've waited
'cause I'm fated
to burden quite a lot on a few

the time I've wasted
getting wasted
trying to think of anybody but you

feeling like I'm not quite good enough
like I gotta always try to win your love
but baby, oh how it feels when I am winning

but you know I'm good at acting tough
I'll pretend it doesn't matter much
and put it into the songs that I am singing

you watch me
you want me
'cause somehow I got under your skin

but you stop me
and you taunt me
terrified of letting me in

feeling like I'm not quite good enough
like I gotta always try to win your love
but you know I'm good at acting tough
I'll pretend it doesn't matter much


feeling like I'm not quite good enough
like I gotta always try to win your love
baby, just let me stay a little longer

addicted to the hopelessness of love
like we gotta always try to find The One
but maybe it's just some souls are meant to hunger